Training

Finally, I can blog! So sorry for not blogging for like almost.. a month? My laptop had some cooling system problem and I had to send it for repair, and I got a really lousy replacement laptop that couldn't access to blogger and Twitter.

But I am thankful for the fact that I even had a laptop to use okay.

Anyways, so, what have I been doing lately?
Mostly, school.

But, now I am also really busy on Saturday, and possibly on Wednesdays and Fridays too.
I have NCDCC Day Parade Training and it's really really physically energy draining.

I can hardly stand up properly in church without wavering slightly or bending my knees in such a awkward angle.

Training is really tough btw. I'm in the Flag Party Contingent, which requires us to.. well, obviously, carry a flag. Our school flags, to be more precise.

The flag pole is freaking metal, and it's freaking tall. The end of the flag is like at my eye level wtf.

Anyways, something happened yesterday that ruined my whole mood.

We were having tea break when a Sir took one of our flags and wanted to teach another cadet flag drills.
After he was done, he wanted to put back the flag he took, but he knocked it too hard against the other flags, and the flags all fell like dominoes.

Anyways, all the CLTs went to help while we just sat there and kept eating la..

Then, we got scolded by a ma'am and a sir, for not helping the CLTs.

Okay, fine.

So we went, okay, more like ran to help, and we got scolded again as there were too many people.

OKAY, still can.

Then, most of us went back and some stayed back to readjust the flag position. Then, after readjusting, the ma'am made them move ALL the flags back to the same position they were, PREVIOUSLY before they dropped like dominoes.

..... I don't even know okay. I really hate it when people assume things without knowing, and scold with no bloody reason at all.

Not only did the Sir who caused the whole trouble didn't even apologise to us, none of the sirs or ma'ams decide to clarify the other's mistakes.

Eh, so what if we're the CREAM OF THE CROP, the TIP OF THE TOP? We still have feelings okay. You think the CREAM OF THE CROP are some cold blooded people is it? Fuck, if you can't even scold us for a legit reason, then at least find out the real truth, before fucking scolding us.

So what if we're WOs and UDIs? If we know we're in the wrong, We'll fucking admit it okay. Do you think we're fucking cowards who needs to be scolded to realise our fucking mistakes?


I tried so so hard to accept the new system, the changes, the new people. But if you're gonna continue with this attitude, I don't even know if I can stay committed anymore.

You want me to join CLT? Prove it.
Prove to me that it's worth my effort and time.

Annyeong.